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Logically, I know that what I dream about is simply my brain subconsciously processing recent information
Logically, I know that what I dream about is simply my brain subconsciously processing recent information

But it sure does smart when all I can remember dreaming about is just stressful situations.
But it sure does smart when all I can remember dreaming about is just stressful situations.

(I keep a dream log, by the way.)
(I keep a dream log, by the way.)

It's not like I write down _every_ dream I have, mind you.
It's not like I write down every dream I have, mind you.

But the vivid ones, and the ones that make it into the log, those are always of a nightmare-ish variety.
But the vivid ones, and the ones that make it into the log, those are always of a nightmare-ish variety.

Placed in an awkward social situation making small talk with someone whose name I've forgotten after a test that I both overslept & forgot to study for, but it's really important I recruit them to my party to help save the world from school shooters.
Placed in an awkward social situation making small talk with someone whose name I've forgotten after a test that I both overslept & forgot to study for, but it's really important I recruit them to my party to help save the world from school shooters.

Knowing that, when I wake up, nothing will matter anymore, doesn't make the fear while I'm dreaming any less real.
Knowing that, when I wake up, nothing will matter anymore, doesn't make the fear while I'm dreaming any less real.

There are a lot of frightening things happening outside in my very own United States of America right now, yet I'm over here cooped up in bed spooking myself??
There are a lot of frightening things happening outside in my very own United States of America right now, yet I'm over here cooped up in bed spooking myself??

Coming back full-circle, maybe it's a way of dealing with the fear that doesn't require me to break my rosy facade during the day.
Coming back full-circle, maybe it's a way of dealing with the fear that doesn't require me to break my rosy facade during the day.

I want people to like me for who I am, what I can do, and how I make them feel.
I want people to like me for who I am, what I can do, and how I make them feel.

If posting some cool photos on my website is a way to accomplish that, then great!
If posting some cool photos on my website is a way to accomplish that, then great!

But here's the truth: this art means _nothing_, this "essay" means **nothing**, and no one cares what I think, because no one's going to read this.
But here's the truth: this art means nothing, this "essay" means nothing, and no one cares what I think, because no one's going to read this.

Is what I would say, if I were depressed, haha lol.
Is what I would say, if I were depressed, haha lol.

Photography has always been one of my ways to express my frustration and burnout, but you know what's even better?
Photography has always been one of my ways to express my frustration and burnout, but you know what's even better?

Human beings you can talk to in-person, preventing you from going crazy.
Human beings you can talk to in-person, preventing you from going crazy.

...I should try harder to not end this on a somber note.
...I should try harder to not end this on a somber note.

Still, things are looking pretty bleak, man.
Still, things are looking pretty bleak, man.

I love you, don't you EVER forget that, sweet dreams, see you when you wake up.
I love you, don't you EVER forget that, sweet dreams, see you when you wake up.

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